Okay, okay. I know I’m past middle age (At least I know that when I’m thinking straight). That being said, ever since returning from Italy on June 6, I’ve been contemplating the next phase of life. Usually, I phrase it something like this: “ARGHHHH! There’s not much time left! I’m 2/3 of the way through life. IF. I’M. LUCKY. What happened? So much to do! So much to do!”
Since learning to live with achalasia, I’ve spent a lot more time contemplating “What’s next?” than I would normally be inclined to do. Clearly, I’ve had some sort of massive wake-up call. For example, I’ve always planned to work until I’m 70. And why not? Being a tenured full professor is a fantastic profession. Job security. Good pay. Flexible hours. Extremely liberal vacation time. Who would walk away from that?
Except, I just had the vacation of a lifetime. And I want more. I loved being in a different culture. And I want more of that. I loved crossing the ocean at 15-20 knots (i.e., slowly) with time to stare out into the horizon wondering about everything or nothing. I want more of that, too.
Seventy as a retirement age is starting to sound too far into the future. I’m not getting any younger. Clearly. I used to look younger than my age. But, people no longer stare with their mouths agape when they find out I have grandchildren. Sometimes I’m given the Senior Citizen Discount. Without asking. And, more than once recently, I’ve had acquaintances assume I’m retired—and look a bit of a confused when I tell them I’m still working. Heck, I’m not even Social Security eligible yet.
In my “I’m getting old!” full freak-out mode, I’ve noticed more creaks and moans coming from my body. Recently while rowing, I damaged my “sits bone” (the ischial tuberosity for anyone who is interested in keeping up with my continued bizarre medical escapades) and for the first time, I’ve wondered if it might be time to sell my racing scull.
We own two houses (one at the beach and one in the city), which take a modicum of effort to keep in good shape. Lately, I’ve walked around both houses thinking about things we should start getting rid of. (Including at least one of the houses.)
I met with the retirement guy to get his opinion on whether we have enough money to retire sooner than later. And, I’ve read just about every online publication Social Security offers trying to figure out if I know enough to make the decision to retire.
As for the hubster, he’s taking my whirling dervish “let’s do something” activity in stride. Occasionally, he’ll listen in when I say I’ve found the perfect cruise that leaves Amsterdam and travels through Iceland and Greenland on its way back to the States. Apparently, I have just developed a NEED to see the Arctic Circle. I think I’ve convinced the hubster that we need to get our next adventure to Italy set right now. We’ve booked an apartment in Nereto, Italy, next July. I’ve never heard of Nereto. either, but apparently I need to go there as well.
I’m studying Italian every day—determined to be at least 50% fluent before I return. I’ve read that studying another language helps delay brain deterioration. So, now I’m worried that my brain is deteriorating. (Drat! I broke my 29-day streak on Duolingo.)
Big breath. Sigh. Here’s the thing. Yeah, I’m getting older. But my life has been pretty awesome—and it looks like it might be pretty awesome in the future as well. (I’ve got my next trip to Italy planned so it can’t be all bad, right?) I’m normally not a freak-out kind of person. Maybe a wake-up call once in a while is good. And maybe visiting the Arctic Circle really is a good idea. Who knows? But, what I do know is that I’ve had an amazing summer—and now it’s time to get back to work. The fall semester starts in just a few days. Looks like I’m not retiring this year no matter what the retirement guy says. And that’s okay. I’ve got time. I hope.
August 11, 2017 at 2:54 pm
Man, oh, man! Good Blog post, Carol! I can’t wait to go to Italy next summer. I am going to have to go early, so we do have to get to planning that, sister!
August 12, 2017 at 9:51 am
Great post Carol! Those wake-up calls are good. Do it, go, see, do . . . while you can and while your health allows you to travel!
August 12, 2017 at 8:02 pm
Actually, I sort of felt like my real life began when I retired. Like you, I still feel an urgency to see and photograph as much of the world as I can before I can’t anymore.